I'm scared, angry and feel alone. Really I should grow up, forget the past, but for some reason I can't...?

well, what you have been through was so difficult, but you shouldn't let this rough and tough incident control your life and turn it to hell. You said that the **** guy is out of prison, but did he get there because what he did to you or what? If it was so, he got what he deserved. Don't let this hatred control your life. Think of how you are a strong girl and of how you were able to live and go on through these past years. Support your friend but first you have to support yourself. No more weakness. You asked if anyone had got through this king of thing. I have to say I was nearly sexually abused by a relative who was older than me by about 7 years when I was 8 years old. But thank God I ran away at the right moment. I was lucky enough to make it. I won't lie that no matter what I still hate him sooo much. He got forbidden by our family so thank God I never saw until now. I almost forgot what happened and I am 18 now.